Hi there,
It’s been a minute since we gathered here, in the ether around our digital campfire, and it’s been on my mind to write. I’ve been waiting to be struck with inspiration, jolted into action, and to feel the pull to write but mostly I’ve been struck with winter, jolted into moving (literal) tons of snow, and feeling called to rest my tired body in between that and everything else.
The big, white, weighted blanket of snow and ice - as intense as it is on a body and infrastructure - isn’t without beauty. It’s not without goodness, either. It holds my focus in this fast time of big change, keeps me honest, grounds me into purpose, and renders me utterly clear about what the ‘next right action’ is. (Spoiler alert: move snow!)
What a gift to not have to wonder what to do, how to do it, where to be, or what matters most in this Now moment.
I hope that you’re well and that this note finds you in tact and surfing the big, new energy with a grounded nervous system, a sturdy mooring in the safe harbor of your heart, a purpose larger than that of your own comfort, and - gasp! - maybe even a sense of humor.
That last invitation might come with some backlash. You might be appalled that I could suggest finding humor in something as serious as democracy being dismantled or marginalized people fearing for their safety or sacred lands being plundered. How dare I, right?
You might be thinking, ‘None of this is funny, Beana, and I trust you less for suggesting that I should laugh at it!’ Maybe this simple invitation seems to call my political leanings into view, or maybe it reveals something about what I stand for or who? Maybe it opens me up to be categorized as ‘on the right side’ or ‘on the wrong side’ of history? Well, it’s okay if I pushed a button. It’s ok if you feel ‘a way’ about my invitation. We are all feeling LOTS of ways about allllllllllllllll the buttons that are being pushed in us right now - by politics, climate, economics, popular culture, the stars, and more - and I accept that I might be misunderstood as I try to share this transmission.
The Love Letter is here to nourish and nurture you, to inspire and activate you, and it’s not intended to provoke you. That said, some things I’ve been learning about my own nervous system and my time on the pillow with the Mushroom Teachers has taught me a lot about fear, challenge, resistance, discomfort, and all that comes with the plight of being a human on Planet Earth. Given the ripeness of this moment, this month’s love wants to be served with a side of bluntness in service of both efficiency and my love for you and for life. Here goes:
We are in a very potent and intense time right now. It is going to get more intense as we move towards 2030 and waiting for things to ‘go back to normal’ or ‘slow down’ or ‘feel familiar again’ is not the path forward, nor is it a reliable survival strategy for what lies ahead.
I am not talking about politics here, friends. I’m talking about deep time, cosmic cycles, and the evolution of our species. 24,000 year cycles (end of the Processional Cycle). 12,000 year cycles (Kali Yuga, Saturn & Neptune conjuncting at 0 degrees Aires on Feb 20, 2026, & Earth’s position relative to the galactic center). 300 year cycles (all outer planets changing sign within a 15 month period)… Whether you believe in astrology or not, it’s safe to say that you believe in time, right? Time has brought us to a very clear threshold and we are moving through it. Major cycles are ending and beginning and very real, very big change is afoot.
#happeningnow
We are on the cusp of a new epoch and, for some reason, each of us wanted front row seats for this big show. All of us alive today somehow got ‘lucky’ enough to be in bodies, with senses and consciousness. Imagine all the homo sapien ancestors that were born in the last 300,000 years! Who survived! Who procreated! Who kept that baby alive! All so that YOU could be in a body right now, today! Scientists estimate the chances are 1 in 400 trillion that any of us should be here. It’s a fucking miracle and here we are. There is no going back.
Does that overwhelm you a little? Or leave you unsure about how to hold it all?Here’s another way to inhabit this potent moment…
When a woman gets pregnant and begins to feel very sick and exhausted, throws up often, craves strange food, swells and physically transforms it can seem like something is wrong. When it’s time to birth and the contractions and dilation set in, the blood spills, the body opens & tears, and there’s a period of uncertainty wondering if ‘everybody is gonna be ok.’ It can seem downright scary, or again, like something is terribly wrong. Birth is intense. It can be violent and messy. It can be painful and scary. It can feel uncertain…
Breath helps.
Water helps.
Calm helps.
Loving support helps.
Midwives, Doulas, Nurses, Doctors & Guides help.
Trust helps.
Imagine our next 5 years as a big cosmic birth.
The contractions of climate catastrophes and politics and sickness and division. The purging of toxic systems of control, obsolete narratives, and limited vision. The swelling of consciousness and attunement to a deeper knowing in all of us that life needs to evolve out of this bullshit paradigm where we’re enslaved to a toxic culture. The tearing and bleeding and surrender that is required to allow what’s been gestating to emerge. The nurturing of the new life, welcoming it and keeping it alive before the eventual dying of those of us that gestated and birthed this change…
None of us will live to see the end of the story but all of us alive right now get to choose how to participate in the writing of this next chapter. This is our birthright and it just so happens that this exact moment - 2025 through 2030 - is a particularly interesting and exciting cycle of time to carry the mantel of ‘human being.’
Zooming out beyond the news cycle (The NYTimes and Fox News are most certainly not covering this breaking story!), beyond TikTok trends, far above political agendas to a vaster perspective on human evolution might help justify taking a beat to appreciate the gravity and awesomeness of this moment. It might justify taking a day off from fighting the good fight, hating the haters, sticking it to The Man to live a little.
Laugh a little.
Create beauty and, gasp!, even celebrate.
Don’t squander your 1:4 trillion moment
Now, please don’t assume that I am suggesting that you don’t speak up, rebel, advocate, cultivate, support, grieve, or stand for what you stand for. I don’t want us to bypass or sleep through the revolution. Not at all. I do, however, want to invite an Aquarian revolution where we run TOWARDS what we envision is possible rather than fight AGAINST what we can no longer abide.
My hope and prayer for all of us in this moment is that we can unleash the power of our hearts, the power of our imaginations, the power of our collective consciousness to dream something radically beautiful into existence. Our highest timeline.
The new Earth.
My prayer is that our precious attention and life force is pointed forward towards a miraculous infinity and not backwards into the inverted, distorted, corrupt last iteration of what we called ‘civilization.’
We deserve to dream and now is the time, baby.
Right Now! is the right time to trust in your body’s intelligence, your heart’s intelligence, the organic intelligence of nature, and the divine intelligence of the Cosmos over ‘the experts’ and ‘trusted sources’ that are contributing to (and profiting from) the mass confusion and mass delusion. Right now is a fine time to turn inward, to look upward, to bow down, and to gather with other people around fires and water and story and song and gardens and ceremony. It’s time to change what we do and how we do it and it’s gonna happen whether we are ready or not.
That’s a lot, right?
I know.
I was debating whether or not I should share my heart so fully with you or try and tamp it down a bit - try to be more ‘normal’ or ‘reasonable’ - but the guidance was clear: Right now matters. People are listening. Tell them the truth. Try to help.
If you’re unsure of what to do, how to do it, where to be, or what matters most in this Now moment, here’s a suggestion:
Take care of your body
Take care of your people
Take care of your home, land, and watershed
Take care of your neighbors and your community
Take care of your dreams, your visions, and your hope. Please, dear God and Goddess, take care of your hope.
Bring your attention back into your sphere of belonging and make it safe and kind and beautiful for all who visit or dwell there, seen and unseen.
Be where you are. Need what you have. Love who you’re with.
Phew…
Ok.
There are some other things you can do too! We can help! Rootstock, as you know, is a living temple dedicated to helping humans decondition, heal, and transform. Every single thing we do here is intended to support people to come back to their centers, regain trust in their intuition, reengage their imaginations, and relearn how to surf the waves of life with authenticity, purpose, and power.
Our 3 month guided microdosing immersion is an amazing way to walk together from March - June on a well-worn path specifically designed to help hold you accountable to the changes you want to make in your life this Spring. This beautiful and simple container combines some online curriculum, weekly zooms, 3 unique microdosing protocols, and an in-person day retreat at Rootstock to help restore your ability to be ‘ok’ regardless of what life throws at you. Hundreds of people have found their way back to wholeness and ‘spiritual health’ inside this practice and you can too! Everything you need (yes, that means what you think it means!) is provided to allow you to engage in the full course when you register and space is limited so sign up today and let’s usher in a season of conscious cultivation, healing, and empowerment together. With all the changes afoot inside and around us, this is a potent pathway to work together with Earth Medicine to cultivate resilience and curiosity instead of rigidity and fear.
Folks needing a payment plan or scholarship should reach out, as I’d like to ensure *anybody* who would benefit from this practice can access it and work with me this Spring. Registration closes on Tuesday, March 4th so get in the spirit canoe and pick up a paddle!
Moon Circle, Sun Circle, Stone Circle, and Kin Circle….oh my!
Gathering together as humans is the ultimate and best medicine that I can think of in challenging and changing times. Moon Circle and Sun Circle, both institutions in their own right by now, have been incredibly healing spaces for so many people. It’s inside these monthly circles that we get to be witnessed, reflected, and affirmed in our sacred aliveness. We get to council, and co-create, and keep life alive with our voices and movement and silence and stories. Every single month there is an opportunity to step into one of these sacred circles and remember what you are made of…
Moon Circle (Saturday, March 1). This month’s circle is full but feel encouraged to hop on the waitlist because things inevitably shift leading up to the circle and space does become available.
Sun Circle (Sunday, March 2 at Honest to Goodness Farm) To join the men, send an email to Cody (icmacd@gmail.com) to get details on the gathering and to join the mailing list. There’s still room in this month’s circle.
Deconditioning the adults is making headway. We’re tapping back into our power and purpose as individuals and as a community and it’s time to make space for the future. Welcome Kin Circle! (Sunday, March 3)
I could write an entire love letter just to this new free or by donation offering but I’ll spare you and simply say, it’s time to learn how to support families, kin, kids, and communities to be together in a purposeful and beautiful way and Rootstock and our beloved community is ready to try.
These gatherings will be limited in size until we learn how they work and what is needed. A number of ‘kidless kin’ will be needed for each circle to ensure that the Mammas, Papas and family units are woven into a culture of care and support so RSVPs will be necessary.
The concept is quite simple and the potential is quite astounding and sophisticated. If the gathering is full, please join the waitlist since we anticipate that there will always be some shifting. We are so looking forward to making a truly healthy ritual for our community and look forward to all the learning, loving, and laughing that is in store for us.
In its second year, the Stone Circle with Eyal Amiel, is our incredibly beautiful and creative way of honoring the Druid Wheel of the Year. As we move through the Equinoxes and Solstices and the cross-quarter holidays, we gather in ceremony to praise the cycles of the Earth, honor the elemental beings, and weave ourselves back into relationship with all beings seen and unseen.
Ostara is a celebration of the Vernal Equinox, marking the literal and symbolic transition into the Season of Light. Associated with the planting of seeds and welcoming a period of growth, warmth, renewal, and expansion, it marks the beginning of the Sun’s waxing ascent to the Summer Solstice. In this ceremony we recognize and offer gratitude to the lessons of Winter’s darkness just passed, plant the seeds of our intentions into fertile soil, and formally step into the light ahead.
Thanks and praises to the shovelers of the bathhouse. To the bath masters! To the wood and kindling replenishers! And, of course, to YOU! the winter bathing beauties who animate this elemental temple with your beautiful bodies, sweat, and breath!
There are a few more Community Bathhouse days on the calendar this winter and, if you haven’t made it here yet for one, come before the snow melts and feel the magic and potent healing energy available to you here.
In terms of nervous system down-regulation and coming back into your body, there are few things better than rustic hydrotherapy and you’re invited.
Just like the ecosystem of community gatherings that I shared above, medicine work at Rootstock also has a variety of pathways and options available to support your healing and homecoming. This work is the heartbeat of my life, my deep devotional service to Life, and a major source of the lessons and learning that I share here with you each month in the love letter.
Psychedelic healing is especially helpful at this moment in time because it is helping to prepare people for the ineffable, mysterious, felt-sense of transformation that is upon all of us and pulling on us to grow. These sessions, immersions, and lessons can help prepare people to navigate change with dignity and curiosity and bring context and shape to an otherwise strange and mysterious unfolding.
2 spaces are open in the March 20-22 Group Medicine Retreat. If you have access to the Booking Portal already, feel welcome to book directly. If you don’t have access to the Booking Portal yet, join my next Discovery Zoom to learn more about the sessions and how to book.
Space remains in Medicine of the East, my next guided microdosing immersion. Registration closes on March 4th so sign up soon and get ready for a wonderful spring of subtle, potent healing.
The Root: Open Source Mystery School and Psychedelic Salon has blown my mind! A whole buncha buncha have come to peer behind the curtain and hear more about how I do what I do. These sessions are in service to working and aspiring guides, therapists and doctors who might be ‘prescribing’ psychedelic healing to their patients, space holders, retreat center owners, microdosing coaches and anybody who want honest, unfiltered insight into how The Work works for a full time medicine guide. Yearlong subscriptions have closed but you can pay per Zoom and come listen live. The next session on Sunday, March 23rd is focused on Curating the Container and there’s space available.
Monthly Integration Circles remain a steady, sweet way to stay in relationship to the medicine path and you’re always invited. The next free or by donation circle is on Tuesday, March 4th.
Wild, right?
So many ways to pray and play together. So many pathways home to the home in your heart. So many options for stepping into something wholesome, healthy, and essential. Want to see all of it in one picture?
When I take a little while to text you back…when I hesitate to commit or pass on plans to get together…when I’m hidden from view when you are here soaking and stretching and healing, it’s because I have opted to dedicate myself to keeping these plates spinning right now.
It’s such an incredible honor to have figured out how to be of service at this time on Planet Earth and I am so incredibly grateful to the past iterations of myself who failed so greatly, fell so far and ultimately trusted this strange and lonely path. To have this temple built, my practice honed, and this community thriving for this exact wonderful and weird portal we’re in is no coincidence and it’s also a fucking miracle.
Im grateful to be devoted to service and place and transformation and I hope and pray that those of you who feel called to come and commune and kibbutz and co-create some real, live human joy together make it here. For those of you who remain in the ether, I love you too and am grateful to share this time in space with you.
Thanks to all of you and all of It.
Blessings on our collective Becoming,
Beana
Thank you Beana! Appreciate your ability to connect us to the macro- journey we are sharing at this time and its tiny moment within the BIG cycles beyond our lifespans. 🙏🌎
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